Random Ramblings and more Incoherent Thoughts

A typical student is not that much affected by midterm exams. In fact, it would be just like any other day except that a little effort is needed to be exerted in order to pump up short term memory just before the exam. Yet, a "typical" law student would turn his/her world upside down because of it. The more hard core law students - well, I guess it would be too mean to mention them.

As for me, during my midterms, my sleep pattern changes, as well as the number of sleeping hours. Obviously, I sleep less but the hours could be from 3am-7am, or 6am-10am, or 6am-11am, or 5am-9am. Basically, my body clock is screwed! But I still try to get a minimum of 4 hours of sleep. I heard from someone that 4 hours is all the body needs in order for it function for a day. Although, science would say you need at least 8-10 hours of sleep in order for the body to function properly and this includes the brain. Following that logic, my brain is also screwed!

Another thing is the eating. Since I study and read all the time, sometimes I just forget to eat! (Oh yeah, we should not forget that we need food in order for our body and brain to function.) Not to mention that I search Metro Manila for all the different coffee shops out there just to look for a place to study. To name a few of my most loved study places - Seattle’s Best ATC, Rockwell and Katipunan; Starbucks Tomas Morato, Valero and Tagaytay; and Gloria Jeans Rockwell and Fort. If you know of any coffee shop that is well-lit, open until the wee hours of the morning (preferrably open 24hours) and is courteous to students who study, please let me know. I badly need a new place hahaha!

Lastly, the added stress level (which could, by the way, lead to stroke, heart failure, heart attack, nervous breakdown, etc.) is just HUGE! It’s there 24/7 and then depression hits after each exam and catapults you further down when the results come out. So now, the perfect question would be, why go through this? Midterms is just another week or two wherein you get an excuse to screw up your body, your brain and could possibly lead to your death.

Hmmm…this sounds just like smoking or alcohol or drug addiction….without the high! Hahaha!

my previous blog entry has generated more response than i could imagine. hahaha, it made me realize people actually do read about other people’s lives. it made me ask myself, what if i posted every single letter that i wrote to myself for the past several years? hahaha maybe not!

coz thats how i do things. before blogs, i didnt have a diary. i wrote on any available piece of paper , after writing, i folded it, maybe sometimes stapled it, then put it in a box with the other letters. most of these letters contained my feelings and thoughts. it was a way of releasing bad, as well as, good energy. after writing, i could go on the day without having to carry the extra baggage. i’m sure everyone has a way of releasing whatever they are feeling. for me, its this. what about you?

It all starts out one rainy day in June. You wake up and nothing seems to go right. You eat, spend the afternoon sleeping, try to drag yourself up from bed and maybe do something productive. You eat again and this time, you get wet doing so. You come home and there are no lights. You try to feel your way around the house. Try to avoid bumping into anything, or any dog from bumping into you while they jump on you.

And then…the lights come on and then you eat again. This time around, it seems happy. You go on and try to do something productive and you do. Your happy that you’ve accomplished something and now you want to share it with the most important person in your life and guess what happens? shit happens.

unexpectedly, you did not time it the way it was supposed to go. like i said, nothing seems to go right. the rain hasn’t stopped, the frogs are going mad outside your doors. you reach the destined time without meaning to, and hey, why not make the most of it? you try to be cheerful, you try to sound nice, but no matter what you do the other person just seems sooo pre-occupied.

have you ever felt the feeling that you’ve just been taken forgranted? have you ever felt like you try so much to make time for someone, but no matter how hard you try, it just isnt how it goes with them? its always been a thing for me to drop whatever im doing for friends but along with that, the expectation that they’d do the same thing for you. i rarely ask friends for anything, most of the time i try to handle stuff by myself, but when i do ask, and they dont give, what does that mean?

sometimes its just hard to accept the fact that you no longer mean the world to someone who means the world to you. sometimes its just hard to accept the fact that things really do change, and they can change for the worse.

after trying hard to be cheerful, you just wanted to tell the person how you felt. but then that person responds by swearing. by saying that you are making things worse. that you have to stop whatever you are doing. meaning, that whatever you are doing, whatever you are no longer holds water…

yeah and its just a fact of life…the older you get, the more you understand how the world works. you see things in a different light. you feel different. and it is different. what comes next?

I had this idea, like a minute ago, about what I should write about. I started with the thought that its easy to forget something or someone, especially when they never made any impact on your life or when you just haven’t thought about them that much and then they start to fade. Its also hard to forget someone or something that made an impact on your life, whether it be good or bad, or when that someone or something had an extraordinary quality that you just can’t get out of your mind. What started with just a thought, ended up into something so, so real.

I bit my tongue and the common thing to ask would be, "Give me a number." Of course, the number that is given represents a letter of the alphabet that translates to the first letter of the person who is supposedly backbiting you! HA! Then I started to remember, which prompted me to look and because of what I saw, I realized, my life isn’t so bad after all

Incoherent thoughts run through my mind today, maybe i’m just babbling, but still I’d like to share what little I have. My pet, Duchess, recently gave birth to two puppies a few days ago, here is their most recent picture:

One is light brown colored and the other white. Aren’t they adorable? Anyway, will post more pics soon

Had dinner today at the recently opened Banana Leaf Asian Cafe in Power Plant and I would just like to share a little something about one of their waitresses - she SUCKS! She literally ignores me, even after eye contact. Go figure! Another incident was that a waiter was taking the order of some people when she suddenly stood beside him and held out her hand to get the menu which was used by the waiter as a hard back where to place the piece of paper where he was writing on. Talk about RUDE! Aside from that, the service was ok and the food was good Although, I didn’t know that the food I ordered turned out to be the type of food they serve cold with hot rice and hot soup! Hahaha Next, I wanna try M Cafe at the Ayala Museum.

Oh yeah, here are some pics taken last new year’s eve

Shobe, Me, Shoti, Mommy & Dodong

Dad and Mom

It’s interesting to see how your life turns out after, hmmm…let’s say, high school. High school was a lot of fun! It could be said that high school was the most fun ever in any one’s life. Most, if not all, people miss their high school days and would like to return to them. Let me start out this post by saying that there is always an exception to this general rule.

In another area of my life, totally unrelated to this, I just had my hard drive reformatted. Why? Because of my incessant need for pc game cracks which led to spywares and eventually, trojan viruSES! Yeah, I have lots of games and in order to enjoy them for free, I have to download cracks and keygens and patches. My computer had to give up sometime! hahaha

For this year, I have only one new year’s resolution, which I plan to live out (don’t we all?): I resolve that I should be more friendly and outgoing to people I barely know. hahaha! History? Well…I guess it started the day I was born, I wasn’t blessed with soft features thus giving me the tendency to look mean a.k.a. "mataray" when I’m not smiling or talking (generally, I would call it a "no-expression" look) but still people interpret it as something different. Even when I feel shy and as a result, I wouldn’t talk, people would then think I was a snob. So now, I have to avoid being "expressionless" and start being expressive, hahaha

I got a new planner already to start planning the year ahead. I’m actually really scared about the upcoming year since I have to deal with corporation finals (which was a subject i attended a year ago, but missed the finals due to the Jessup competition) on top of my usual load!

Still, I am very happy to say that I got a GREAT planner :)  I was supposed to get an Ateneo planner but since they didn’t have stock yet (and I was already panicking), I decided to get another one. I searched around the net and came across subject about "moleskine." I didn’t know what it was but since the topic stated inks and pens also, I was intrigued. It turned out that moleskine (pronounced as mol-a-skeen-a) was a legendary notebook used by people such as Van Gogh, Picasso and the like. My commercialism kicked in and I just had to have one and now I do! Yey me!!!

I also got a notebook, which I plan to use, for now, I still don’t know what though! hehehe Still gotta continue with my thesis outline, so im off for now

So there i was, with Mae (as usual) studying in Figaro when i happened to look across the mall and see a familiar face leaning down the metal railing, towards the piano player.  It was an actress but i could not be sure who, so i disrupted Mae and asked her if that was who i thought it was and indeed, it was!

I can’t remember how it started, at first it was just an autograph but then it turned out to be a photo event I just wanted to ask for her autograph! (me, being indignant, hehe)

Off we went across the mall and into women’s secret. At first, we didn’t know how to approach her so we acted as though we were just browsing through the collections. (Yeah Right!) But time was being wasted and we still had to study for succession (grrr…), so we just gathered up our courage and asked her.

Cindy Kurleto is suprisingly very accomodating and super mabait! (not to mention, really beautiful, ehem, hehehe) She signed both our succession books (syempre! wala kami dalang papel pero may ballpen, hehe) and even said yes to having our pictures taken together! wahooo!

So, ladies and gentlemen, i present to you (see my default picture) the result of our little adventure for the day although, we saw Troy Montero and Aubrey Miles after, we no longer had the strength to ask them (also, besides the fact that they walked really really fast).

Now, i have something to share with my future kids, hahaha

It’s 2:47 am and I’m not even halfway through the insurance reviewer yet! This is getting so frustrating. Having to set your life around deadlines and schedules. Anyway, since I’m all bored, I just want to share some stuff about me

I live in a 2-bedroom apartment in Makati and I currently have 3 dogs (2 male and a female) living with me.I drive a Honda CRV and I sleep on a king-size bed! My closet is too small for all my clothes.And for those who didn’t know, I wear contact lenses (sometimes glasses, but I prefer contacts).I sleep early in the morning, usually between 4-5am, and wake up between 9-10am. I rarely have breakfast, I guess I have brunch most of the time.

I have long hair but really want to cut them short. I love Haagen Dazs ice cream, especially Belgian Chocolate Chocolate and Strawberry flavored ones. I like watching movies and anime (currently, Ranma 1/2 Season 3). I enjoy reading and as of today, I have more than 20 books in my queue list. However, I am really excited to read my latest purchase, The Historian. Playing on my DVD right now is the TV Special, "The Building of the World’s Biggest Aircraft - The AirBus A380."

I like eating out and I am an avid consumer of electronics. I love my gadgets And as observed by some people (hmm…u know who you are, hehe), I am good at convincing people on certain things (mostly advice on what they should buy). Aside from studying, I also sleep late looking for games for my laptop or phone.

I like chocolate (but only in small doses, too much makes me gag). I am a bit of an OC when it comes to schedules and arrangement of my things. I hate it when my schedule for the day gets ruined with something not life threatening (although, friends-in-need are always welcome). My friends know that at least a day’s notice is sufficient for me. Just like a lot of people, even though the room looks like a typhoon passed through it, I know where everything is and I like it to stay that way.

To be continued…(gotta get back to studying hehe)

I’ve been studying for hours straight (including of course, little tidbits of fruit express here and there) and it looks like there is no end to all this mayhem!!! HAHAHA!!! Tax is soooo cool either that, or I’m just going loco! hehe

Anyway, this is the start of my blog, and since blogging has been there for ages, I decided to attach the links of friends of mine who I know have blogs outside of friendster. I hope you get to read them, they are truly out of this world !